Sept. 30.
aka...homecoming.
Britaini isn't going.
she has no date.
her boyfriend lives in Ohio.
Britaini is really sad.

Agh. ok so I'm mad.Yeah. You know how i'm in like a lot of clubs? Well, if you didn't...i am. I'm in Interact, right? And I wanted to be Historian for it b/c I thought it might be good experience for Stu-co...even tho I prolly wont get it AGAIN but MUST BE OPTIMISTIC! So, there is this girl Sarah who HATES ME and when I say hates me I mean H-A-T-E-S me. So i've heard at least. Now here's the funny part. i've never spoken a single work to this girl and she's so quick to judge? Well turns out that little Johnny freak over there is spreading rumors that I WAS THE ONE WHO CHEATED ON HIM! I was like "are you freaking serious about this crap?" he made up this bulls***t story about how I cheated on him and left HIM alone and how he's had to struggle with his confidence and emotional stability. I...I'm so furious I'm pracitcally speechless! He's not only telling this to like ppl I dont know but also some of my friends that I've made throughout my years at DHS. How can they believe him? Luckily I've caught a few of them and told them the TRUTH and they were just as angry as I was but basically he tells them not to talk to me apparently and all this crap! Idk...maybe I'm overreacting but I blocked him from my life for a reason...drama! He wants to go out and cheat on me with all of Sugar Land, so be it. But you best leave me the heck alone after you do it. It's not easy to be my friend after you hurt me as severely as he did. I just..I wish he would leave me alone. I'm so so tired of crying over him and the same things. I...dont want to cry anymore. I dont think anyone understands how much this hurts me. I just...I just want to move on.

Omg so it's def been like forever since I've written in my xanga. Why do I even write in it anymore? Why do I even have it anymore? Hmmm...b/c it's my private life that myspace doesn't show. My internal true feelings about everything. The reason I'm writing in it today is b/c I guess I wanted to update to some anonymous force out there that reads this thing and finds it amuzing. Today I found myself crying while taking my shower. I know...random but it was b/c the song "Baby Blue" by George Straight (or however he spells his last name now) came over the radio. My grandpa used to sing me that song. He didn't really know lullaby's so he figured it was the next best thing. I miss him SO much. I cant believe he's gone. I cant believe he's been gone for over a year now. My life has been missing something since then and I know that it's him. He was the dad I never had and the best friend I know I'll always have. No matter how very very very far away he is.Rest in peace, Papa.

So basically Britaini es muy stressed out with having Dolls and the play at the same time. I swear I'll go to dolls at the end of each day and kick until my leg is practically dislocated and then run to the auditorium and pick up my script and go. i'm doing a pretty ok job with juggling school around it but it's def NOT the easiest thing in the world to handle.

George and I are doing amazingly. He's so awesome! We talk every night before I go to bed. Guess what?!? He actually called his aunt (matt's mom down here) and asked if he could stay during Thanksgiving break and then he asked his mom. Both agreed that would be a good idea to come down here. So like last week he bought his ticket to be here from November 21- 27. He's officially coming! It's only 67 days away! yes I have a countdown and everything! i'm so so so excited!!!

Had the district meet for Stu-co today and it was pretty cool. Learned some new stuff and different projects. Afterwards we went to the mall and I went into Forever 21 (aka best store EVA) and then ate some ice cweam with Mr. and Mrs. Thomas (aka my heroes) so amazing! I had a pretty awesome time today. Back to stress filled days tomorrow though. I'll make it through, however, b/c I am Britaini! I can do anything! Right?

So until next time invisible forces who read this ridiculously long entry that only comes in about once a month, have a wonderful week.

<3 Britaini

Hola.

So, as many of ya'll heard I made the DHS play "The Musical Comedy Murders of 1940". I am mucho grande excited. I feel horrible for those who didn't make it and wanted to, though. I am Bernice who is this goofy, hippie, granola, gyspy old lady. I love her! OMG she's a hoot lemme tell ya. So hopefully most of you will come out and see me perform in October. Bad news about that is that Mrs. Hayes wasn't too happy. She told me I cant really be in the halftime show b/c of it but I can still be in the feature. I felt horrible bc I wasn't even originally an alternate in the show. I was going to be in all of them and I had to go audition for that play. Still I'm really excited about it b/c the cast is amazing! Student Council is all this week and I really really really hope I get on it. This year they're doing this thing where #'s 15-19 are work-ons and 1-14 are the actual members. Well, last year I didn't even make it into Stu-Co I was a work on and this year I might not even be in it. I would like...seriously be really sad. I'm not popular like...at all and a lot of popular ppl are running *no names*. I just hope I get on it again this year. I had my performance for Dolls last night for the first time and what do i do? I mess up. Yeah...good britaini always messing up routines. I felt stupid b/c my mom was video taping the entire thing. What a thing to show my kids "oh look and there is mommy messing up her pom routine in front of her friends and family and mrs. hayes." I only missed a little part but still. I love dolls. I love dancing. I love acting and I love theatre. Two amazing passions. George was on a cruise this entire week. I couldn't talk to him or anything and our one month was on the 23rd. YAY! He's still pretty awesome. We had like this serious convo one night at 2:30am. I was so exhausted and we're talking about how much we like each other. It was oober adorable but it was def the first time we've ever REALLY been affectionate over the fone. It totally sucks that he lives like a gagillion states away but he's coming down in November so YAY! His last name is like ooberly gorgeous...Bella. I like love his last name. So I have my church youth group tonight in about 5 minutes so I'm gonna go. This one was long but I figured I should update. Nobody reads this but maybe by chance someone out there does.

Hey everyone.

so as you know britaini has a new boyfriend and she like thinks he's basically amazing! So, tonight anna and clay are going to work out at some gym and and then he's taking her on a romanticle date and she got a CUTE outfit for it and I matched her outfit in teal so it's adorable but it made me realize something. I wont get to do that with george b/c he lives like 15 states away. I mean I know that maybe when he comes down and stuff we'll do that but I would have seriously loved to go out tonight. I'm just lucky to have him to tell you the truth. But sometimes I feel like he's distant. Last night for example I tried to talk to him and he was like "yeah...mmhmm....sure" and I felt so like lost in what to talk about. He got better throughout the conversation but still that's how most of our conversations start. it's awakward and we'll only have stuff to talk about for like 5 minutes then we're done and it's back to "yeah...mmhmmm.....sure" I mean it's not like I can say "omg do you remember that thing that anna did at school last week??" b/c then i think...oh yeah he lives in OHIO! 

I have skit squad rehearsal tomorrow. I'm really really nervous b/c the skitsofrinic or whatever act I run out of stuff to say and do after about one person. It's crazy. I have a pretty cool shirt though. Dolls is wearing me out though. today it was like 158 degrees and I almost died. serioulsy I could have died. I'm always SOOOO tired b/c I can never get enough sleep. It sucks.

mmkay enough complaining.

Sorry I just had to get some stuff out. Nobody reads this anyway so it doesn't matter.
Hope everyone's summer is good though! mine has been demolished now that dolls has started but it's still fun to dance when you get the chance.